Tuesday, January 13, 2015

The Wolves in Doc's Head (Chapter 10)

Doc’s alcohol problem was brought on by stage fright resulting in public humiliation. Being booed off stage in Berlin ruined Doc’s confidence in his playing ability. He now couldn’t even play the part he messed up on in private. Losing what he had worked so hard for led to depression. In an attempt to cope with the depression, Doc started drinking. He tried to silence the “howling wolves in his head”, which was actually the booing from the Berlin audience, not from alcohol itself. When the sergeant arresting Doc poured whisky over the piano, Doc wasn’t just upset because the whiskey would damage the instrument. Before it was a mental problem, but now alcohol was physically affecting Doc. Despite this, Doc turns to alcohol one more time. Doc drinks some whiskey to silence the wolves in his head so he can successfully perform the full Beethoven symphony. Doc doesn’t drink enough so that he becomes intoxicated. He used alcohol to calm his nerves so much that even just a taste gave him his confidence. After this, Doc no longer needed alcohol. His success empowered him to overcome stage fright in the future.

Alcohol typically further ruins people’s lives, but Doc was able to use it to support himself. Without it, he would fall into despair any time he tried to play piano. Alcohol makes people forget their troubles. Most people use this effect of alcohol so that they can ignore and run away from their problem. Doc used alcohol to face his problem head on, without being impeded by his past mistakes.  

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